I've swallowed myself but the fever remains |
Drifting closer to the edge but She won’t have me
Wake up in sweat, full of regret, try to forget
These memories, lurking beneath, lost in a dream
Unchosen paths, a broken past, forespoken wrath
The pain won’t cease, I’ll find no peace, no sweet release
How long had been now? How long since it all started to go downhill like an unstoppable landslide? She wasn't quite sure. But she was fully aware that others had taken notice of her behavior. Of how she'd disappear and return bloodied and disheveled. But she didn't care. Let them see her fall. No more kindness except towards the cubs, no more regal grace.
In such a short time, the once regal woman, ever so kind and gentle, had become a hostile shadow of her former self. Even the lands of the Cove were stalked with stiff limbs, wound up so tightly that she might snap at any moment. Where once had been smiles, only an ugly twisted snarl shifted her features, elongated fangs nearly always dripping with the blood of unsuspecting creatures, no matter if they were prey or anything else.
She'd noticed @
When his eyes opened again she was there, sitting leaned against a rock. Though disheveled yet again, her fur was not bloody for once. A good sign that at least for the moment she hadn't gotten into yet another fight. "You're an idiot." Eventually she spoke, ears flattened tightly against her head as she looked at him. But there was still at least a hint of concern in the look she gave him.
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'Cause these days |
Ever running, we are dead before we meet Her
These voices telling me let it go (let it all go)
I try and try but I can’t say no (try and say no)
Few knew of what she'd been doing, none knew the full extent. And that was how she planned on keeping it, at the very least until she found a way to stop the free fall she'd found herself in. Not that she'd been looking for a way, but that too was her secret to bear.
She'd still been angry, always so angry, when she'd approached. But the way he spoke, the way he looked away from her. It did pull at her heart, pulled her through the fog that seemed to cloud her mind at all times. A somewhat growled sigh escaped her as she slowly shifted to flop next to him, stretching out. "I was thinking about it," she admitted, her tail lashing against her side. "We all make mistakes. But you can't find out if things can be fixed if you just run from it." Lagertha leaned over just a little to gently touch her nose to his cheek. "You love her and don't want to lose the bond you have. So don't just give up and run. Don't...go and try to throw your life away. You can find a way through this, to make things better again, if you actually try."
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Little more lust and some addiction |
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Ears perked up as he listened to @Lagertha speak. The slightest of nods were given, to acknowledge that he was listening to her. "I love her. I just don't know if this is fixable." Lagertha spoke of wanting peace in the pride and he had to agree. The trio had made a mess of things, it was clear. And his stunt only aggravated it more. He didn't know if Sunder actually came home to him for him or because Keela had asked her to watch over him during the heat of the day. "I screwed everything up. I'm going to give her space for now. Mother returns tonight and I'm going to ask her to help me up to the Freeze where she is staying. It'll take stress off of Sunder if my Mother takes care of me full time in her home." Looking at the wheaten lioness with a small smile, "I'll return one day. When I'm better. I just ask of you a favor. Help Sunder and our children. My sister can only help so much with the children." If Keela and him left at the start of dusk, they should be able to make it back to the North before the sun rose too high. Giving Sunder the space she needed would be a help, for all of them. It would be one less stress for the Queen. And Keela could give news back about his condition. Sighing, he got up slowly. "I should get back inside." |
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A small smile formed on his lips, weakly, as she spoke. Keligan missed the way things were between him and Sunder. He had just been so hurt by her cheating on him that it broke him more than he ever realized it would. Drunk intentions or not. Listening to @Lagertha and the words etching into his mind, he sighed softly. "I.." Feeling her head brush up against his own, he felt such confliction. He didn't even know what to say. She suggested that he tell Sunder about him leaving but he shook his head slowly. "No. She'll only try to persuade me to stay and I.. can't do that." He didn't know if he could handle being here, in his condition, unable to soothe his wife and her troubles. Kvare was a better fit man for that. A better fit man for it all. The dragon wanted a kingdom, and a kingdom he shall have. "I don't know if I'll return. It may be best for me to live in the Lagoon once I am better. Dagge is my brother in arms. Or continue to live as a Rogue." Closing his eyes, he knew he could never be King of Caladan again. "I've done more than mess up with Sunder. It's just.. best for the safety of the pride if I don't live here anymore." Keligan had been a fool to attack Alizabeth, especially with such conflict between Caladan and the Summit as it was. His stupid decisions would take down the pride. It would bring war to the doorstep. It would be better if he left the pride as a whole. "I care for you too much to bring you harm. To bring my children harm. To bring the pride harm. If Sunder really.. wants me, she will know where to find me." |
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