Reti had paused, a rough chuckle coming from his healing throat at her words. He sniffed at the flowers again, but the girl didn’t realize it was to savor the scent, she only assumed he thought they were the wrong plants. She frowned, brows furrowing. She knew they were the right ones. When he looked at her, his eyes shined with humor and she huffed slightly, but smiled all the same. Maybe he was just teasing her. When he explained the smile turned into a grin.
"I can get more." A challenge and a promise. She would bring him more gifts in the form of medicine, if it meant that he ate the ones she brought today.
Understanding flickered in his eyes at her question and she listened as he spoke, his expression shifting and softening as he did. She nodded at the soreness, but when he said he was fine, that he was himself, her brow furrowed. Wheels churned behind those yellow eyes. Was he though? He seemed like he was…but…that scarred lioness… she had said he wouldn’t be the same.
"How do you know?" She asked, curious and prodding. How did he know he was himself? How did he know if something was missing when he was still so newly…revived?
At the mention of her name, she shifted, focusing on her adopted father. She listened intently to his words, but her confusion only grew. She didn’t necessarily understand how the afterlife worked, but she had not heard stories of rebirth before. He continued, stating being that were badly hurt or recently killed could be brought back and be born again. Her head shook slightly, he hadn’t been reborn though, his body was the same old body it had been.
"You left." She stated,
"you stopped breathing, your heart stopped beating. I didn’t hear it anymore. You weren’t born again… what if being put back in your body…damaged you?" Her head tilted this way and that way as she worked through her thoughts and finally came up with the word damaged, because what else could be if he weren’t himself? What if the process broke some piece of him?
"What have you seen?" She asked, more of an afterthought than anything. Had he seen others brought back into their old, broken body?
For a long moment, they were silent, her waiting on his words and he trying to find the right ones. When he spoke, telling her why he had done it, she listened, trying and failing miserably to keep an open mind. He didn’t want his family and friends to be killed. He went on, before she could argue. He explained the things Miaran had told him and she frowned, nose wrinkling in disgust. It was wrong to purge and
burn others, the words he used causing her to gasp in shock, she had seen how that ended and it was a nightmare. It left many broken in more ways than one. It left
one orphaned. She swallowed thickly, blinking away the thoughts and focusing on his words as he continued. The longer she stood, the more suffering she would bring. Zinnia nodded, understanding.
He took a deep breath, paws flexing int o the ground, and she recognized the nervousness and nudged the lavender closer to him. It helped her calm down, it would help him to. He continued speaking and she listened, but she wanted to argue, others had stepped in to defend Hanneth! He didn’t need to die. She understood Miaran had attacked her for the wrong reasons, prayer was nothing to be faulted for and neither was talking to a ghost. He had done it to save others and Zinnia would regard him silently. For a
very long tense few minutes, she regarded him silently, her expression a confusion of emotion from anger, to grief, to understanding.
"You can’t do it again." She stated, her tones blunt and sharp all at the same time.
You can’t-" She shook her head, trying to clear the emotion.
"You can’t leave me. Us. You can’t leave us." The emotions swirled as the girl glared up at him, pleaded silently with him. She was no longer a child, but she still needed him there. Aphro needed him there. He didn’t see that
look her adopted mother had given Miaran when she tore Reti’s throat.
He may not have wanted them to bleed, to fight in some war, but they would. Because Miaran was wrong. She understood (in some way) that he didn’t want her siblings, his children, to see war and death so soon…Zinnia had seen both before she had came to Amaryllis. It wasn’t new to her. Her first war and seeing death had broken her, she was still broken and fragile, but she could handle the death of anyone….except Reti, Aphro, and her siblings. She needed them. They held her together.
"So how are we going to kill Miaran?" She asked, head tilting to the side, as if that was the most logical and reasonable question to ask next.
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